thOse nights

I look over and over ur pictures...trying to understand why u still there in my heart...why u seemed so sincere, why u were so u, why u did all that u did...u made me think that was true..it seemed to.!
I can't find the answers...just because u wanna be charming with me..?..well...with us.!?..I guess that u did the same with her...
Some situations, some kisses, some...things...seemed to getting out from ur heart...ha!...yeah...sure...
I want u back if u can only be the one who u were those nigths...those hours...below the moon when we kissed...but u r not that boy...
I was thinking if u really miss me how u say u do...or did.../...u deceived me one, two, three times...and u still saying that u want me back because u can't be just my friend, because u can't stop thinking on me...and she's there...and u beg me...and u want me to believe u...but how..!!??..
And I keep thinking...why u said all that..??...how could u be such a gentleman.?..why u were exactly who I wanted u to be...why u said everyday that u didn't want me to go.?..if I wasn't the only girl in ur mind...if u were kissing her behind my back...why..?.
Sometimes I think that u really mean it...and that in some way u did felt all those awesome feelings that u told me...sometimes I wanna cross the line...
But no, just shut up...it's too late...I said no...I can't believe u anymore...u didn't do what u promised...u didn't care about change...
I can't look at u and imagine how u hug her...if u tell her the same things that u told me...I don't wanna think if u kiss her in the same way that u kissed me...in those nights...
And u took that word...and u r with her...and how I feel now..?..I don't know...
And if u come back..?.. if u realize that I do worth it...that I deserve the changes.?.that she really "can't compare to me" like u said...would I be there..?..
And what if u don't.?..would be my fault for said no..?..for in first time in life put my own heart's security before someone else...or...would be her fault for being there no matter how shammer could u be.?.or anyway...u always prefered her..?..
...I saw u today...u kissed me in the cheek...and u stabbed my heart...and u gave me a little hug, ur smell clung in my shirt...and u keep walking...and I was crying...but note it...nobody saw a single tear...I'm stronger now...

So deep inside

yeah...so far from here...empty without a reason...I wonder what makes me this way...
Don't u see that I don't love u.?..don't u see that u r loosing me.?..don't u see that I'm afraid.?..u don't see that I'm lying...
Soft I felt, excited, and secure that my whims will come true...always so selfish...ruin my happiness.
No...don't chase me...let me go and I'll be back...blowing strong...I'll come again.
Live ur life , don't think on me, change, renew urself, dismissed me...I'll look for u...but don't wait for me.
I sit...and I rest...waiting for what I never gonna get...for what will make me cry...for what someday will make me change...I hope see the star in the morning.
I change u for my loneliness and ur pain, u will change me for my doubts and ur happiness...who lose? who win?...damn society.
Yeah...that's my reason...immaturity. I will love u, believe me...but now I can't.

Ready or not...I'll let me fall...hoping that before I touched the floor...I can fly, change, love...

u don't worth it

Oh...u don't worth it...u don't worth all my tired nights, all my smiles, all those words!.../...u don't worth my time, neither my thoughts...
Could u just leave me alone..!? I'm so sick of this...that is just so u, coming back when I've finally moved on...please...go away from my life!!--junkie u don't deserve me...I realized that is so true!
Did u ever loved somebody.?.That girl who made u cry.?...[well if she really exists or u just made up that story too]...did u ever enjoy my kisses.?.did u ever really wanted to hug me.?
Oh...who opened that window.?.making all fly away...because when someone came to close it, was just too late.
I want u people disappear, this is not your business and u r not helping either.
But u don't worth this tears, u don't worth my broken heart, u played with both and I just took the right decision...if she wanna be there while u r telling me all those sweet words...I don't care...she's the one who likes to be fooled.
U r not leaving me, I left u first...

I gave u that opportunity...u begged me for so long...and then I said yes...
Oh...but I should've say no, I waste my afternoons on u...and u didn't worth it...u don't worth it.!..
Stop all the lies, don't call me, don't text me, don't try to talk to me, I don't care anymore...